Broken and bruised with nowhere to turn. I’m all alone in this fight no one to have my back. I try and be a warrior but somehow I come up short. Relapse is what’s on my mind most often. It’s like a reoccurring nightmare always to haunt my dreams. Won’t let me live my life without it. It screams my name, calling for me to embark on a journey of self destruction. A warrior can only fight a battle for so long and some battles are losing battles right from the start.
I know this doesn’t go with my blog, but me and my best friend just got tattoos. We’ve both struggled with depression and self harm and this is our sign of recovery. What you see is a seratonin molecule. This is the chemical that a brain lacks when someone is depressed. Now we’re on our road to a permanent recovery. I’m proud of us. I absolutely love these
"Your story isn’t over yet."
So idk if I ever showed y’all these but they are my tattoos. The first one I got in 2012. It’s funny cause when I see peoples first tattoos they are really small and then there is mine which isn’t really that small. This tattoo was meant to represent my parents and tell them I love them. The heart represents my mom because no matter how much we have and may not get along she is still my heart. And the anchor represents my dad because he is the thing that keeps me grounded.
The second tattoo I got earlier this year. I got this for a few reasons. As many of you know I am a recovering self harmer. This tattoo meant a lot to me. It is the abbreviation for Hold On Pain Ends. And it was also meant to be a reminder that my skin and body is beautiful. This tattoo was/is one of my most meaningful it’s keeping me strong on days where I wanna give up. It has always been a reminder that I can get through this and one day the pain will end and it will all be worth it.
I do plan on adding to it I would like to add a butterfly above the E and the heart symbolizing the butterfly project.
Temporary Tattoo (Lasts 1-2 Days)
1. Find a tattoo design you want to use (smaller & simpler ones work better.
2. Draw tattoo in desired area with sharpie marker (Face is not recommended)
3. Wait 3-5 mins for design to dry.
4. Rub baby powder over tattoo.
5. Wait 10 seconds.
6. Repeat step 4-5. Continue these steps one or two more times for bigger tattoos.
7. Spray hair spray lightly all over tattoo. (If you want a “melting effect”, spray hair spray heavier until you get desired melt.)
8. Wait for hair spray to dry.
9. Spray tattoo one last time VERY LIGHTLY.
10. Enjoy :)
P.S. - if you want to keep the tattoo for a few more days, don’t scrub your body in the shower where the tattoo is. If you do, leave tattoo faded so you can draw over faded area. Repeat this process again.
Good way to test future tattoos